" To have these emotions .. "

“To have these emotions ……”

By: Carrie Adams

May 14, 2013

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Where do you take this package which can hardly be contained ?

How long do you or I have this package which is not a gift or a surprise present ?

No one could imagine the experience of being without your own children .

I have reached over the hill of my 40’s and living up hill in my 50 ‘s and there is nothing on this great planet that compares with being estranged from my own kids .

I’m not making any attempt to tell you how this happens . It is up to you to learn something about the epidemic of family traditions , rights of parents , rights of best     interest of the child etc ….  in a courtroom nearest you !

I have been writing too long and I certainly don’t like to repeat my words ; I find so many alternate ways to communicate with people and the commonality of family right advocates is the closets ( understood ) population  of random people or organizations that understand this disposition of living estranged from their own children .

Mean while the masses of people who have little understanding to this awful circumstance of parental alienation  are more likely to pass judgment ,snarl , mock , incriminate someone else’s capabilities of being a parent and are simply among the pool of non victimized citizens !

What I personally am satisfied in knowing ; there are rules of law and they most certainly brew in a large pot behind courtroom walls and doors and you like millions of others expect to not be violated by them and when you do get violated your world begins to unconsciously tremble , shatter and significantly appear as indescribable which can cause anyone to collapse , go bonkers , look for vengeance etc …. 

Besides the persecution that is unwarranted by strangers and those appointed staff within our  judicial system they all want you and the rest of the public to honor their decisions for your life and that of your own children . Tell me everything unlike this conduct that is prevalent in domestic family law courtrooms today .

 I’m so patient ( a mother being alienated from two wonderful kids since the spring of 2004 and this date today is May 2013 ) , do your best to tell me differently !

I invite you to open the same very package which I am describing to you and lift the lid where emotions contained within are these ; outrage , sad, mad, hurt, anguish , depression , loneliness , bewildered , suspicious , doubtful , questionable , empty, confused , irate , pissed , discouraged , disappointed , hopeful , less than hopeful , patient , inpatient , regretful , rage , disgraced , pitiful , lost , dazed , suicidal , contemplative , bizarre , angry , betrayed , worthless , deniable , curious ,  dead , stuck  and heartless ….. of course victims have lists that are huge and to be treated with  utmost respected !

I have lost years of time with my own children . No memories to events such as graduations , birthdays , proms , celebrations , all holidays , all the nights , all the days of  7 + years …. why ?   For most people we learn to live with our decisions  and of course a variety of emotions are tagged with our situations . 

Personally that is easy , call me a hypocrite if you can justify knowingly that I have made poor regretful decisions in my life . Something about me clearly known by my closest friends is I have handled life through a serious lens and a very responsible task throughout all the decades of my life.

I have had challenges that made me stronger and discover my true self and I am pleased with myself . More than anything else I want this very thought to be consecrated into the soul , mind and heart of my own 2 children . I do hold valuable traits that I can unconditionally share with them which will enforce such amazing traits of them self  for themselves .

I have never hurt anyone and if lies are so necessary to obscure the truths then God knows the battle that was once in front of me and the end of the battle which will be behind me he all by himself will flip all dark spaces , faces , targets , perplexes and motivations of my enemies and show all the glorious proofs of evidence of light and truth .  I don’t have to do anything .

My walk  in Christ remained the very discipline that I have known since I was a little girl and I never thought to compromise it for someone else  for any reason .

The most significant package that can be finally labeled with my own 2 kids names on it will be that God carried me through this horrible journey and near the end of this path all my suffering and hurt will be transformed into joyous expectations and they both will have earned the warmth , love , certainty ,confidence , security , promises , strength , maturation that genuinely grew within their loving Mother . 

I knew to trust the Lord with all my heart and see beyond the principalities of war fare that I did not deserve such mis treatment or abuse , my children who are innocent of this prolonged unjust alienation from me and all those members in my family who long for healthy relationships  with them and with countless cousins who pray for a true family reunion can attest that Carrie has sat or stood in protective custody in  ( God’s arms ) realizing that mankind has decimated  the laws of God and the results to all of humanity may be unfair , unreasonable , criminal , irresponsible  and wildly a crazy jungle .  

 If there is any example of surviving such tragedy it is Carrie.   My love and conviction to my kids Jake and Braidy is genuine .

        

 ~ God does not like ugly …. I never straddled two sides of any fence ~

     You may never know these emotions just permit God to stamp his security badge    on it . 

         

You will handle all that you face with the purest of smiles and your  championship      

and victory of life’s tribulations will be a satisfactory testimony

           
Don’t ever Give Up ,  Don’t ever Give In ,  Don’t ever Sit Down ,

Don’t ever  Hide or be Ashamed

    

Follow The Book of Life and Capture The Very Feelings That Jesus Had For Us

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